A Brand New Day

Good morning world, it's a brand new day.

After a night fraught with nightmares, and a year filled with hopes and dreams and effort and disappointment, I greet this first day of 2014 with weary regret. Regret is my constant companion. Regret for every mistake I've ever made. Regret for not being the person I want to be. Regret for how far short of the mark I fall. Perhaps not what I'm supposed to say, resolution wise, on the first day of the New Year. But it's truthfulness -- as well as gratefulness -- that I seek.

Every new morning is a new chance to do it differently, to approach the day with a different attitude, to try harder, to be more of who I want to be.

Today I will be the mother my son deserves. Today I will be the wife my  husband dreamed of. Today I will be the me that I know I can be if I just don't get in my own way.

After all these years, I still let fear and insecurity get in my way and stop me from being all that I can be.

So today, borne hopefully on the wings of a brand new day and a brand new year, I will approach all that I do and all that I am with patience, gratitude, and conviction.

I can choose to be insecure, regretful, scared, impatient, and small. Or I can be vulnerable, patient, and brave.

I choose brave. I choose grateful. I choose a brand new day.